Pleasant Fast Sunday

Pleasant Sunday

Today was Fast & Testimony Sunday, because next week is General Conference. I bore my testimony about how the only way I am going to stay strong has I ride this rollercoaster is my testimony. Come to find out a couple of people in the Ward had not heard about my cancer. With our Wards being as small as they are I was a bit surprised.

I ended up missing Sunday school class because one of the Sister’s, (for those non LDS friend, not a Nun, just a women in the congregation), wanted to talk with me about not only how I am doing but also about how my Mom is doing. It is wonderful to have friends that are concerned about her also. I am glad that my friends understand that my cancer affects my entire family. This gives me hope that when the time comes they will reach to them.

I thought that you might find it interesting that I find writing this blog to be very helpful to me. It makes me stop and think about what my day has been like.  For the most part I have always tried to look at life seeing the glass half full. Therefore when I write this I look to see what good things, large or small, have happened. One of my favorite hymns is titled “Count Your Many Blessings”. So I guess in a way I do that now on a daily basis. I think doing this is helping me to feel good emotionally even if I am in pain.

Today the pain has been very tolerable, for which I am very grateful. It was great to go to Church and truly enjoy the service and feel like participating in the classes. The Gospel of Jesus Christ gives me an understanding of where I am going and what it will be like, that makes it a journey that I look forward to. (Relax, not enough to hurt myself. Besides I believe that if I commit suicide I would not be able to get to the best part of heaven.) I have things I want to do and just a few places I would like to go to before I make that final journey.

I am finding it odd that thoughts are coming to mind about what I want in my Memorial Service and even part of what I want to have posted has my final entry to this blog. I have heard for years that the dying know that they are dying. I guess now I am learning this first hand. These thoughts do not frighten me at all and I have no sense of urgency about them. I just thought you might find this has interesting I do.

So to sum up the day, it has been a quiet, peaceful day. The greatest blessing of the day was the opportunity to socialize with my friends. The hugs, smiles, handshakes, and conversations of today will stay with me all week and make whatever comes easier to deal with. Thanks for being my friend.

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, www.lds.org