Two doctor appointments today. Dr. Hu is very happy with
the fact that the pain is under control. Of course so am I. I am no longer
considering a second opinion for my care. This is a very rare form of cancer
and because I am being treated by a doctor who has treated this form of cancer
before I feel no need for a second opinion. Now if none of the doctors at this
cancer center had ever treated Adrenal Cancer than I would still want a second
opinion.
Frankly I think that I have received two blessing, one
that they found the tumor and were able to diagnosis the cancer, and two having
a doctor on staff who has treated this cancer before. I thank the Lord for
these blessing.
The doctors have made it very clear that there is no
cure for this form of cancer. So all treatment is being done in the hopes of
reducing my pain so that I can have a good quality of whatever is left of my
life. Many people in this world are not as
fortunate as I am.
Between doctor appointments I was able to get some
reading done and that was great too.
Rereading the entire set of scriptures is one of the things that I have
put onto my “bucket list”
I must admit that this evening I am in a bit of a melancholy
frame of mind. It is tough at times to think that there is no cure for what
wrong with me. And it is very, very, sad to hear your mom say that she is
praying that the Lord will not make me suffer. I feel so bad for her. However,
today she also told me that she knows that I have lived a good life and we
agree that there are others who need a miracle cure more than I do.
I have thought about not posting such down feeling but
then you would not get a true picture of what my life with cancer is like.
Please understand that this does not mean that I have any plans to stop
fighting for life.
I am just adjusting to accepting the Lord’s will for me.
I pray that the rest of you can also accept the Lord’s will for me. I have
lived a good life and I have a great deal to praise the Lord for. So please
review what you know of my life and see if you can find all of the ways that
the Lord has blessed me. If you can find
anything for which I should be grateful for than see if you can find any way
that you can find to be grateful for having known me. If you can do that, than
thank the Lord, for that gift. I am looking over my life and the people I’ve
had the blessings of knowing and counting my blessing. Each of you in some way
or another have touched my life and for that I am grateful.
I am very thankful that you are my Aunt. Thank you for sharing this journey. I think you are very brave. Thanks for being YOU.
ReplyDeleteSuzie, I am grateful to have had you for a sister. We haven't agreed on many things--we still don't, for that matter, but I've always known you were there to support and care for me. I hope you can find me there (in spirit, if not in body) for you when you need it.
ReplyDeleteI admire the way you're facing your condition and the likely outcome. Let's face it, we all have to confront the inevitability of our own demises as much as we don't want to do it. You're doing it with grace and good humor and a quirky flare that I respect.
Sarah, I have always admired your creativity and individuality, I think you are a very special soul. I just wish we had lived closer to each other so I could have known you better. Please keep being YOU
ReplyDeleteJimbo, it has been very interesting with you for an older brother, but through it all I have always been glad you are part of the family. So we look at many things differently, that's okay in my book. I DO feel that you are "here" for me. I am glad that you are going on with your life, because you should. I am very touched that you have found something about me to admire. I hope that I can continue to keep my grace and humor and the days go on. I am proud to be your sister.