Hi Folks,
I went to Church today and I got to hear four of my granddaughters
sing in a special choir. All of the young ladies (12-18) did a wonderful job they
sounded great. The entire Church meeting was great, however, the pain that came
was far from good. During the meeting my tube to the oxygen tank came off, it
did not take long for me to find the tube end and get it reconnected very
quickly. I needed help walking to the car after Church and I don’t believe I
can ever attend Church again.
I contacted my nurse via text on the way home about
adjusting the pain pump and she was able to come right over and adjust it. I
also had to increase my oxygen at home from 2 ltrs to 2 ½ ltrs per hour. Right
after Cookie left I took a nap and I am still very tired. Cookie is going to
get me a hospital bed right away and she is trying to get one with a special
mattress.
There seems to be a problem with my feeding tube the
bloating seems to be causing the tubing to be too tight where it enters my
body, so I am going to see if it can’t be loosened. Actually I would like to
learn how to do it myself because it seems to need to be adjusted every day!
I am sorry that today’s news is not good, but I expect that
this is the way it is going to be from now on. I have not seen any notes
telling about happy memories you have with me, or goofy things we did together.
Even if you can’t write them down please think about them and hold on to them.
Since arriving in the Springfield area about 6 weeks ago, we have heard from others about the lessons on faith they are learning from Suzie as you walk your path back to Heavenly Father. We have only one memory and that involves Hattar. She requested that we take a large amount of candy to her lovely friend so they could sit together and make a wreath for the firemen, even though her friend's days are numbered. So we drove to the candy store and then to your home all along the way hearing about your beautiful gardens and working together in them with Hattar. Though we had met you and your mother at Church a few weeks prior, this was a personal visit with someone who loves you deeply. And so we say thank you for affecting so many lives, including ours, as you continue your journey and we will pray that your time to go will be delayed until after the holidays as you wish. Love, Elder and Sister Jueschke
ReplyDeleteMom and I really love how you phrased what I am doing now "walking my path back to Heavenly Father" I am very happy to hear that others in my ward family are being uplifted by what I am posting on this blog. I am telling everyone what it is really like I do have bad days. But I try to find the good in each day and dwell on that instead of dwelling on the bad. There is one thing that I would ask of the two of you. If Hatter will let you please help her deal with my passing. I want her to remember our fun and crazy times together. If she must cry I want them to be tears of happiness. I have had a good life. Yes I have had my trials and I think I have learned from them. I just prayed that I learned enough. May I thank you for your prayers. May God bless you always. Suzie
DeleteLets see, I have quite a few memories. One thst comes to mind was the wonderful chat we had driving somewhere (i can't recall where we were going) you shared your testimony with me, and the story of your coming back to church. I dont know if you even remember that comversation, but your deep faith made a big impression on me, when i really needed it. I remember you meeting Mike for the first time (Before my parents even!) at the ward house there in Springfield. I am really glad we had those few months (geesh 11 years ago!) to get to know each other better. I also remember how AWESOME it was to have you with me at the temple when Mike and I got married. I love you, and you are in my thoughts daily.
ReplyDeleteBecky I don't remember the talk you spoke about. But I am touched that it meant something to you. It was a spiritual day when you and Mike were married in the Temple. It is my faith in Jesus Christ that is making my journey back to my Heavenly Father easier to walk. Please hold to those happy memories when you hear that I have passed. I want people to remember me with tears of joy not sadness, please try to do that for me.
DeleteMemories ... sorry they were awhile in coming, they were swimming up hill against the sorrow.
ReplyDeleteWhat do I remember? Oh my goodness, your are in the warp and weft of my entire life. Do you know you were the first, and only, person to ever read us Bible stories? They weren't big at our house. But Vicky and I learned them from you.
Remember when you and Bill came to Long Island just after Robert and I separated and kidnapped me to Massachusetts? You set me on a path that has brought me great happiness. And introduced several people to the gospel. You missionary, you.
I was talking about you in Gospel Doctrine yesterday. The Lesson was the first half of Moroni and we were talking about Baptism and there was a quote from President Hinckley about how important it is to look after new converts and I told my class I wish everyone who joined the church had a cousin Suzie to be there by their side 'cause you explained things and answered my questions no matter how dumb they were.
I'll be back with more.
Take care,
Cathy
I had no idea that I was the only one who ever read you a Bible story but thinking back I understand why I would have been the only one. I never thought of myself has a missionary but I am glad to hear that I did some missionary work while here on earth. That is a big complement you paid me about helping you with your questions when you first joined the Church. You did NOT have any dumb questions. Your questions made perfect sense when I thought about the fact that you were not raised in a "Christian" home. Your father's religion is great for adults who already have knowledge of different religions and can then pick and choose what to believe from each, but it gives no back ground to children. Please don't put me up on a pedestal I am far from perfect and you know that! I just try very hard to be a good Latter-day Saint. If you cry when I die please make them tears of joy from these happy memories.
DeleteI love you cousin.
Suzie