Rainy Day Relief

Today I saw my primary oncologist and she are pleased with how I am doing. There was a mention of doing another round of chemotherapy. The doctors don’t want to do it because it is too difficult for most patients to tolerate. I have to think about this but they have no real benefit they can tell me about so I am leaning toward saying no. But I will think about it for a few days.

From what the doctors hinted at if I did do another round of chemo I would have to do it soon or it would be too late. She told me most patients just can’t tolerate the treatment. I also got the feeling that it would destroy the quality of what life I have and there would be very little if any benefit to be gained. I see no reason for putting myself through that.

Thankfully the heat wave is over and we are enjoying a cool rainy day today. I have found that going out to the doctors makes me very tired and even a little dizzy. There is no way I could go to any all-day event like the Scottish Games. I will miss doing things like this. I didn’t do them that often but I sure enjoyed the occasional outings when I did go.

I have found that I need to take a very long time to eat in order for my body to like it. But that is okay with some foods. I know that I will be going to bed very early today. I have also noticed that I am in more pain this afternoon and evening then I have been in since I came home from the hospital. I hope this is not going to be the new normal. I am grateful for my PCA and the break through pain it helps me deal with.