Oh how the heat gets to me now

Death by Heat!

The summer heat is killing me slowly. It is more than my weak ole body can handle. I tried to eat food at lunch time but it never got to my stomach. So I had another can of my formula. Now it is dinner time and I feel the same way I did at lunch. Mom has made me some mashed potatoes with a little browned ground beef. I am trying to eat it but it is going very slowly. I hate the idea of getting sick.

I tried some of what Mom made me but I just don’t think it is going to agree with me. It tastes good but my stomach doesn’t care about taste.

In the last couple of days I have noticed a new pain in my body. I get a sharp pain under my left breast, almost below my left arm. The pain comes and goes. All I can guess is that the cancer has either spread or grown and so the increased pain. I don’t think there is anything else the doctors can do for me. I know if I ask they will increase my pain medication, all I have to do is ask. Last week when I saw the doctor they did offer to up the medication already. But I declined, I don’t have enough break through pain for a change.

It is very strange to think you can feel the illness that is killing you grow and there is nothing you can do about it. That is how I feel about this new pain in my body. Life is strange with what we go through. I am not sure just what I can learn from all of this but I am trying to keep a positive outlook on life. Once my stomach settles down I think I will be better able to enjoy my life. Due to the heat’s effect on my health I am looking forward to fall weather.